You are much stronger than you are willing to admit you are right now. The reason why is because you have a perception that strong people get attacked or hammered down. And so as a safety precaution or a safety mechanism that you learned in the past in your childhood, you’re attempting to make yourself small so as not to stick out because, as the saying goes, “the tallest nail gets hammered.”
Strength comes in many forms. You may be correct that right now is not a good time for you to stick out in an eccentric way in order to protect yourself physically, mentally. The thing that you can recognize now is that there are other ways to be strong besides just being verbally or physically loud and present in a particular room or with particular people. This is a time for a show of strength that is mostly felt energetically. This is a time that calls for a strength of presence within yourself, and the strength of knowing what is right and what is true within yourself, and not bending to energies or forces or people outside of yourself, just because they say so.
You might find yourself needing to follow laws or orders or objectives that require you to act in certain ways that you do not believe in right now. And what we want you to know is that it is okay for you right now to feel like you’re violating your boundaries a bit in order to preserve the larger trajectory of your life. You’re playing a long game right now. You’ve set multiple facets of your life in motion to move towards things that are better for yourself and your family. So right now to protect yourself, you might find yourself stepping outside of your values, stepping outside of your integrity in order to compromise to keep yourself safe in a more macro picture or a more macro level because it’s not just you that you’re protecting.
You’re also protecting yourself and your well-being so that you can continue to protect your immediate family, potentially members of your extended family as well that you might be taking care of right now. You have people that rely on you. And so you’re finding that you need to be strong in this moment. What we want you to know is that it’s okay that right now is a period where you’re finding yourself stepping outside of your morals, your values, your boundaries, your integrity, because you are playing that long game and because you have other people that depend on you.
Part of being a grown adult, that is responsible and, ironically enough, has integrity, is knowing when to bend, where to bend, and where and when to risk breaking. This is not one of those times to break. So although it pains you greatly to feel like you are violating your own truth and not listening to yourself in terms of what you know is right in terms of your actions, now is a time of mental strength. Now is the time for you to prioritize and focus on mental strength. Adhere to the principle of mental strength. Even though your body might be doing actions that you don’t believe in, keep righteous thoughts in your mind. Even though you may verbally say things or agree to things that you don’t believe in and are not in alignment with your values, keep righteous thoughts in your mind. Mentally do not succumb to believing these things are true. Mentally do not violate your values. Mentally do not break your integrity. Mentally honor yourself by remembering that you are separating the reality of what you need to do right now in the short term to protect yourself and your family with the long game that you are preserving yourself for to maintain yourself as a protector of yourself and your family.
You are not a bad person because life is requiring certain things of you right now that are requiring you to go outside of yourself, your truth. Everyone gets faced with those things at some point in their life, and this just happens to be your time. You are not a bad person because you are trying to survive, because you are trying to persevere. Just mentally maintain your integrity. Don’t fall for or believe the propaganda and the lies, the orders, the mantras, and any kind of “spell” that external antagonists are trying to place over you. Mentally, you know what’s right. Mentally, you know what you believe. And mentally, you will outlast and outlive this period in your life. This is the time for your mind to carry your body and to get you through this. So, on top of needing to do things right now that don’t feel good, don’t also add to that pain mentally beating yourself up in ways that are not going to help your well-being. You don’t need to add yourself as another enemy or negative voice to the list that you’re already facing.
Say it out loud. In the times where you are alone where you have the time and space to yourself to be able to reinforce your beliefs and your understandings, say it out loud to yourself. “This isn’t true, this is what I believe. This isn’t true. This is what I believe.” State your beliefs out loud, state your values out loud to just speak it into the world, make it physical in some way, so that you can have a stronger vibration of your internal truth to hold on to.
You are also shaping other people that you are around. You might be worried that when they see you doing things that you are not proud of, they may think that what you’re doing is okay. Have a bit more faith that the people around you are not so easily influenced that they can’t tell that what you’re doing, your mind is not in allegiance with your body in that moment. Ultimately, they will be responsible to think for themselves, and you may or may not have a level of comfortability with discussing with them that you’re doing things that you don’t believe in for purposes of privacy and safety. But trust that they can tell that something is “off” here. Your energy is not exactly enthusiastic about what you’re doing, and so they can understand on a certain level that they are witnessing someone who is doing what they need to do to survive and not necessarily someone who believes in exactly what they’re doing.
This, down the line, can become an important message or value for them themselves where they can understand how they saw someone that they respected and loved and looked up to carry themselves in a way where they took care of business and made sure that their family survived whatever hardship they were surviving. They did not bend their will, and they did not break mentally. They did not succumb mentally when it comes to internally – their morals, their values, their ideals.
There are times when one needs to push through difficulties in life and there are times when it’s better to fold in whatever way is safe for you to do and to seek help and to soften in a way that is more allowing of healing. This is a time that you need to push through. Not to say that you should not seek help in any way, shape, or form that you are able to. Make sure that you have people that you are able to talk to that are safe. Make sure you have outlets to be able to feel your emotions and let your body express those emotions in ways that are safe and nourishing for you and the people around you. But this is a moment that you’re going to need to push through.
There is a light at the end of this tunnel, possibly in the next 6 to 12 months. That may seem long, but the time will go by faster than you will feel like you’re experiencing it. There is a light at the end of this tunnel. Things will lighten up and you will have more leeway because of your mental strength now, and because of your persistence, with focusing on taking care of business so that you can take care of yourself and anyone around you that you are responsible for. Things will lighten up eventually, and you will make it through this period and you will establish wiggle room for you to be able to escape into other ways of being.
There have been times in your life where you have not been required to face the cognitive dissonance that you’re experiencing now. And so although it is extremely and profoundly painful, experiencing cognitive dissonance at this level is ultimately a hardening process or forging process because it requires a very tough mind to be able to move through the world in one way while believing something completely different or completely to the opposite. And so it’s not that you were a weak person and the universe is trying to forge you into a stronger warrior or something like this. It’s something that, in a way, is required of the development of a mature mind and of a mature person that there are levels of cognitive dissonance that you have to live through. This happens to be one of those periods for you.
It’s not that you’ve done anything wrong. This is not a period of punishment for some sort of error you’ve made. It’s simply a karmic lesson here that you must learn that sometimes you have to disconnect the mind from the body in order to allow the body to survive, so that it may later rejoin with the mind. This seems like a lesson that you will take with you into future lifetimes. This may have been a point that needed to have been strengthened as a result of past lifetimes not having experienced this, so it’s been in the making for a couple of lifetimes for you.
You are a warrior, but it’s just time now to be a warrior of the mind and not only of the body. ”Warrior” can mean a lot of different things. It doesn’t necessarily have to mean someone who wields a gun or swings a sword in a battlefield. A warrior physically can be someone who endures hardship in life because battles in the physical environment can take many forms. It may not always be bullets flying past you. There can be social conflict, social unrest, social unease, being in socially and emotionally hostile environments. These things take a toll on the body as well.
The situation is forging you into being a warrior of the mind as well. Being able to maneuver yourself not only physically but mentally in such a way that makes you much more resilient. This is something that you will definitely carry into future lifetimes. What you have to look forward to on the other side of surviving this difficulty that you’re facing right now is a much deeper understanding of the value of your values, because you may not have been conscious of them before, of what it means to have values, what your values are, how those relate to who you are as a person, how these kinds of principles guide you in your everyday life, how they influence how you want to be a role model for the people around you that look up to you and the people who rely on you.
But what this is calling attention to now is really understanding that you do have values, even if you hadn’t stated them out loud or talked about them very much or thought about them very much consciously previously. You do have values. You do have principles. You do have things that, in your mind, you will and will not do, things you find appropriate and inappropriate, and that kind of a thing. This period teaches you that those things exist and they are extremely important to your sense of self and how you wish to conduct yourself as a person moving forward. It helps to make it extremely conscious for you how you model these values as a person, or how you model yourself as a person with values to younger people around you that you mentor, that you are responsible for taking care of. Because you understand now consciously that these are things that they pick up on, even though you weren’t aware of that before.
Lastly, it makes you really question your relationships and look around at the people that you surround yourself with and want to make sure that you are surrounding yourself with people who also have the same or similar values as yourself. Because in this process, you’ll also watch other people that you previously thought were your friends or family fall to the wayside in terms of agreeing with these principles and these values that external entities are trying to enforce on them. And you might look at those people and they may not have necessarily indicated very strongly before that these were values of theirs, but you see them all of a sudden start adhering to and echoing these sentiments. And you realize that they don’t quite have a filter or a mechanism in their mind that prevents just anyone from putting things in their head and telling them what to say and they’ll say it. And you realize how dangerous that is to be around. And you want no part of that.
So you might find yourself also upgrading, if you will, in your social circle, or at least potentially losing people who were in your social circle previously because you find that it’s not even so much that their values don’t match yours, but you’re concerned with how porous their mind seems to be. How brittle of mental boundaries they seem to have or willpower they seem to have to think for themselves and direct their own lives, mentally. It’s not a bad thing to remove these people from your social circle. There’s no need to negatively judge or think about them. It’s simply just a falling away of people who no longer match your vibration. And with that will come new people into your life who better match your values and your vibration.
On the other side of this challenge that you’re facing right now is what feels like a much cleaner conscience. Being able to forgive yourself for any actions that you’ve taken or words that you’ve said that don’t feel in alignment with yourself, and also knowing that you did whatever you needed to do to take care of yourself and your family. Understanding that this was a period for you to purposefully develop that ability to deal with cognitive dissonance. It feels like you have a clearer conscience, and also you have more of an alignment with yourself. Because of all of the stuff that was very much not in alignment with your personal truth being very loud in your life and the contrast of that butting up against you feeling that misalignment with your personal truth, you’re able to have and feel into a much deeper connection within yourself, to your personal truth.
So it’s a lot easier for you as you continue to live your life after this in alignment with your personal truth because it’s much louder to you. It’s much easier for you to recognize that feeling of when things are in alignment with it versus when things are not in alignment with it. So there’s an increased sense of inner peace and happiness because you’re much more adamant about, to the best of your ability, you’re going to make sure that everything you do is in alignment with your personal truth.
Your family will be safer for it as well because they will have someone who’s not only able to be there for them in a more authentic fashion, and is more mentally resilient, and is able to help them have more mental resilience and model that for them, but your vibration is also higher. So you’re just, in a way, a much more pleasant person to be around. Your energy feels much nicer to interact with.
You may also find yourself experiencing an internal sense of pride in yourself and appreciation for yourself that you were able to make it through what you know was an extremely difficult and challenging experience. That knowledge that you were able to make it through this period will continue to bolster your self-image or your sense of self-respect because you know you can do hard things. You know you can make it through difficult times. So it’s like anything else in the future, you’re not really worried about it because you know you are a survivor.