The direction you seek is not a direction of up or down, left or right. Should I do this or that? The direction you’re seeking lies within yourself. You have to choose who you want to be in this life. You haven’t chosen who you want to be in this life, and that is why you’re having difficulty making decisions for yourself.
When you are certain who you are, the everyday tasks, questions that you have, desire answers for, they become obvious, minimalistic. Of little importance, of little thought. Things become more obvious when you’re certain who you are. You feel out of control of this car you’re driving that is your life because you don’t know who you are. It’s not because you don’t know the answer to the minute questions. The minute questions would not be factors in your life if you knew who you were.
Is this identity-based decision making or is it just simply a matter of understanding the stream that you’re heading down? There is such a thing as too much knowledge in this lifetime. Too much knowledge, too much information, too much noise, too much input from other people who don’t ultimately matter in your life, and who ultimately don’t actually want what’s good for you, although they will tell you that to your face. When it comes to making decisions for yourself, you have to understand deeply what it is that you want. What it is that you’re moving towards as a person. On a soul level, on a soul evolution level.
Because souls evolve over time through lifetimes. You’re on a pathway or journey or trajectory as a soul. There is a character arc, so to speak, for you as a person.
The ending may not be determined, but there are points along the way at which you have decisions to make about what direction to go in. And that is ultimately the only directional decision that you have in front of you at this time. Who are you going to be? And there is an assertiveness that you must assert this choice with in order for it to be coherent to the universe. The universe at this point in time does not appreciate wilted, will-less behavior or action.
It must be decisive and it must be loud. This can be done through a variety of different means – through repetition, through forcefulness, through radicalness.
You have to decide who you are. What you will and will not stand for. Otherwise you will be run over by the other decisions and they will make your choice for you. Who you don’t decide to be is just as important as who you decide to be. Because all those other lives that you could have led will start to bleed into this life, and you will start to experience things you do not want, because you did not choose for yourself, what direction you wanted to take.
There are decision points that are coming up for you that are of increasing importance, of increasing dire circumstance, which require more and more dire action. Decisiveness.
You have to decide who you want to be. From that choice, all other choices are already decided. There is a certain chain of events that goes off, which makes things a lot easier to understand. Therefore, you are acting, living, from a place of action and not from a place of spontaneity. You are merely resonating with, existing within, the flow of that one decision you made of who you wanted to be.
This is also an opportunity for you to redirect yourself if you feel that you have gotten off course. As who you want to be is also something you decide at all times. It’s not a one-time decision. It is a repetitive action. It is repetition, a habit, as some people like to call it.
There is a lack of decisiveness on the planet right now about who people want to be. You cannot be one of them. I’m sorry to say, you don’t have the luxury of being able to not choose. Other people might find themselves sliding this way and that and find it fine and comfortable, just perfectly comfortable for their lives, to be indecisive about their identity. But you do not.
There are dire consequences to you not deciding who you want to be. Do you have flexibility in who you choose to be? Absolutely. Because ultimately free will does exist. Can exist. You must exercise it.
You can decide to be this person or that person. Strong-hearted or weak-willed. Kind or cruel. Benign or malevolent. But you must choose, and you must choose via your actions on a daily basis, on a second to second basis, on a momentary basis.
You might find this all overwhelming, but ultimately, what matters more? Your decisions or your outcome? Learning to live in the present means that you don’t focus on your outcomes. You are only ever present with what is with you right now, and what happens afterwards is merely a second thought. Or third or fourth or never happens at all. But the decisiveness that must happen in the present is all that matters, ultimately.
In your particular case, the decisiveness must be swift, and it must be ruthless. There are things that must leave your life. Not because they are necessarily bad or evil, but because they don’t fit anymore. You must let them go.
You have to choose for yourself who you are going to be in this present moment, in every present moment. So what we would recommend for you is to take up a new practice or habit, not to overwhelm the ones that you’re already trying to incorporate into your life for yourself, but as a primary function of being. There’s a different operating system that you must switch to. “In any given moment: Who am I?
Am I the administrator? Am I the child? Am I being scolded or am I administering punishment? Am I a leader or a follower? Am I a giver or a taker? Am I cruel or am I kind? Am I a master or a slave? Who am I? Right now in this moment. ”
Your answers may shock you. Not because they don’t feel in alignment with your soul, not because they’re not authentic, but because your authenticity might be a lot more powerful than you originally anticipated. You might find a lot more power in your decisions than you originally anticipated. You might find yourself actually changing things for the better in your life then you may have originally anticipated. You might find a lot more pushback than you originally anticipated. You might find a lot more freedom than you originally anticipated.
It all lay behind making these decisions for yourself in the moment. Not simply remembering that you wanted to be a master and not a slave, but acting as a master at all times. Not simply in choosing to be kind that one time when you remembered that that’s something that you prefer the world to have more of – but choosing kindness in every moment. Especially when it’s difficult.
Because the decisions will be difficult. If any of this was easy, of course, everyone would be doing it all the time. Because life is difficult, sometimes, and sometimes it’s easy, and this is not one of those easy times, unfortunately. But of course, on the other side of doing difficult things are easier times. You did not come here to suffer eternally, you came here to do work. You came here to accomplish a mission.
You came here to evolve as a person, as a being, over time. The difficult decisions that you make, they add up, and eventually you’ll start to see the fruit grow on the trees. You will be able to eventually benefit from the difficult decisions you make now.
For now, you must decide. Am I going to plant seeds? Or am I just going to attempt to utilize my harvest until it runs out? Who do I want to be, long-term, with finality?
Although the journey may never finish, may never officially end, there is evolution and you must decide your direction. This is not an easy task to undertake, but the longer you take up this habit of making difficult decisions, the longer, the harder the journey, the more fruit you end up bearing in the end. For this cold winter, we implore you, make those long hard decisions so that you may enjoy your fruit at the end.
It’s not a plea for masochism of any kind and it’s not to say not to do things that feel good. It’s simply to say that when it all comes down to it at the end, the only thing that matters is that you are true to yourself. Sometimes, being true to yourself is the hardest thing you’ve ever done.
We leave this message with you.