There’s a decision coming up for you that you feel extremely uneasy about. You know the answer that you need to choose, but it’s like you’re refusing to look at the answer because it makes you uncomfortable. So you’re pretending like you have two viable choices when you really know which answer you need to choose. The left side. You’re stalling.
Part of you feels like maybe stalling will get you out of the decision, like someone else will be able to take over. It looks like you’re stalling because part of you is hoping that if you stall being able to give an answer long enough, a third party will have to come in and intervene and remove the ability from you to make a choice, and therefore, you won’t need to choose. And this could very much be the case, but this is not what your soul is wanting. Your soul doesn’t want you to not have to make the choice. It could set you back a bit in terms of regressing in maturity if you use the stalling tactic.
There’s an energetic constipation here that’s been here for a long time in your gut. You’ve been putting off needing to make decisions for yourself – very critical, important, life-altering, life-changing, life-deciding decisions. You’ve been putting it off.
It feels like you’re very clenched up in your gut and holding back. Like you’re on a roller coaster, but you’re in resistance to being on a roller coaster. Like you’re on a roller coaster that you don’t want to be on. So you’re in resistance the whole time while you’re on the roller coaster and your gut is super clenched. So on the one hand, you could be a person who rides a roller coaster and your hands are thrown up and you’re screaming out of fun and you’re having a great time, but you’re white-knuckling this whole situation. This feels like it’s been like a good 3 to 5 years, maybe 3 to 8 years, of your life.
It also feels like it has to do with education, possibly medical education or a medical decision of some sort like whether to become a doctor or not, whether to go into a medical field. Or, potentially, making a decision to get a medical procedure or not: could be plastic surgery or an amputation or some sort of medical intervention of some kind – essential medical care, whether it be for your mental health or whether it be to improve your quality of life when it comes to health or to save your life.
The universe is telling you that you need to make a decision to move forward and it feels like there’s going to be this stalwartness in the universe, which is “okay, fine, if you don’t want to make a decision, then you’ll be given a decision and you’ll have to deal with it and you’re not going to like the answer. ”
It’s not retribution, it’s trying to teach you that it’s better for you to choose a decision, even if you don’t necessarily like 100% what the outcome is. It’s better to choose and to decide what you’re going to sacrifice, what you’re going to give up, and why. To have that sense of closure or permanence and responsibility in directing your own life, than to allow the universe to kind of hit you over the head with something that you may not like.
There’s a maturity check coming up here. It’s like you have to mature as a person enough to pass this check. The universe is requiring you to grow up and develop this level of maturity. It’s not a punishment. Having to make a decision here is not a punishment.
There’s a lesson here that maturing requires sacrifice. That you have to leave behind this notion that may have existed at some point in your childhood – the lesson, in a way, is almost like: children are allowed to believe that they can have it all, adults have to recognize that certain things you must let go of in order to get what you want. Adults recognize that you can’t have it all. You’re not going to have it all. But that’s not necessarily ultimately a bad thing.
That shedding of things that are not of critical importance to you, that ability to prioritize and to isolate what it is that you want and let go of other things, to sacrifice those other things – that is a key aspect of maturity that you’re having to develop now. When you let go of those things that you don’t need or don’t want, it may feel like a death of part of you. It may feel like your identity is changing because you’re letting go of something that you previously identified with.
You also need to learn that you should not be identifying with things that are not permanent. Don’t identify with careers, don’t identify with jobs, don’t identify with skillsets. These things are transient. They come and go. People evolve over time and you may have to let these things go. When you do, you don’t necessarily want to or need to lose your sense of self or a part of yourself when they go. These are simply like add-ons to your authentic being, but they are not who you are.
Make up your mind about who you want to be moving forward and don’t get stuck in the past with your idea of who you were. You’re changing and evolving as a person. The faster you’re able to shed that old skin of who you were, who you thought you were, who you wanted to be, even, the sooner you’ll be able to leave that old shed skin behind, and the sooner you do that, you’ll be able to emerge as this shiny new snake with your shiny new scales, and you’ll be able to come back out into the sun and feel really good about yourself in your life and you’ll be able to start building again – building a new life for yourself, building a new reality for yourself. Not building a new identity because you don’t want to start identifying with things that are not permanent, but being able to exist without a fixed identity, just existing in the moment and the present.
The simplicity of life is the sweetness of life for you. What you’re looking for is a simpler resolution to life. You’re solving for peace. You want things to be easy, you want things to be clear, you want things to be viscous. You want things to flow easily.
You have to be able to move through this stuckness point in order to get to that other side, and you have to relinquish what you’re holding on to that you know you need to let go of in order to get through that point. But on the other end of releasing those things that you previously identified with that you’re resisting letting go of, on the other side of that, is the sweetness of life of having a very simple, viscous, easily-moving, energy-flowing life where things are very simple, they’re very straightforward, they’re very clear, they’re very honest, they’re very authentic, very grounded.
Again, simple is the biggest word here. They’re simple, simple, simple. There’s such clarity and such lightness for you in your being on the other side of this. I feel like I can breathe again, you feel like you can breathe again. You feel like you have clarity in your mind, you can breathe, you’re seeing the forest for the trees now, you’re seeing the full forest. You’re above these super micro stressful points. You’re in a much better place. You have clarity, you have peace, you can breathe. There’s less stress, there’s ease, there’s flow, there’s calm, there’s peace.
So, the sweetness of life is what awaits you on the other side of being able to let go of this tumultuous grasp, grasping onto a past identity.